Captain's Log

Canon in D link for Daniel

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 06:51:45 GMT

http://www.snowcrest.net/tigger/music/

Fallout 3 for PC

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 04:25:29 GMT

Hey Emily or Mallory, do you have Fallout 3 for PC? I would love to borrow it (not to play it much, just to demo it to see if I want it for Christmas) for like a day or two if you do.

I know you mentioned playing it but I don't remember whether you said you had it for PC or not.

Thanks.

Hunting deer a mile from campus?

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 15:53:15 GMT

Hunter kills student and injures another while they look for frogs for biology class.
http://www.roanoke.com/news/roanoke/wb/226754

This is the problem with hunting in general. And both groups were hunting.

Inanimate human, not so inanimate

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 20:40:33 GMT

So they found out that they misdiagnosed this "coma" patient as being in a vegetative state for 23 yeas... he was just majorly paralyzed... he was fully conscious...

read on...

http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2009/nov/23/man-trapped-coma-23-years

The conclusions of a few of the experts, that somewhere around 40% of coma patients might be misdiagnosed is terrifying. A lot of these people, when they are misdiagnosed, might fall under the legal care of people who have the option of pulling the plug... and it is possible that they are not unconscious at all...

Wumpus Update #2

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 06:11:13 GMT

Level 12 Tauren Warrior

Exploring: Still in Mulgore

Accomplishments: Made it to Far Watch Post and Crossroads, but hearthstoned back to Mulgore to finish quests. Made some pants, bracers, and an axe that he cannot use yet.

Goals: Journey to the weapon master in Orgrimmar to learn how to use his axe. Complete quests for the lazy people of Crossroads.

Dungeon Alert: Wumpus is ready for Ragefire Chasm.

Wumpus Update #1

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 22:28:40 GMT

Wumpus is a Tauren Warrior on Wyrmrest Accord.

He is a blacksmith/miner and he is now level 11.

Exploring: Mulgore

His goals: Make own pants, weapons, and other coverings out of metals dug from the ground. Soon.

His accomplishments so far: Near genocidal encounter with Quilboars in Mulgore. Honored with Tauren. First aid, cooking at apprentice level

Most hated enemy: Harpy
Most hated by: Harpies

Using: Two-Handed Mace

Motto: Eat more two-handed mace!

Cthulu Webcomic... for Daniel, John, and Ben

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 03:55:51 GMT

We are playing Arkham Horror right now, so I can't read this comic to see if it is good, but here is a Lovecraft webcomic:

http://www.macguff.fr/goomi/unspeakable/vault316.html

Lyrics to Under Pressure by Queen and David Bowie

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 20:32:28 GMT

Mm ba ba de
Um bum ba de
Um bu bu bum da de
Pressure pushing down on me
Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure - that burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets
Um ba ba be
Um ba ba be
De day da
Ee day da - that's o.k.
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow - gets me higher
Pressure on people - people on streets
Day day de mm hm
Da da da ba ba
O.k.
Chippin' around - kick my brains around the floor
These are the days it never rains but it pours
Ee do ba be
Ee da ba ba ba
Um bo bo
Be lap
People on streets - ee da de da de
People on streets - ee da de da de da de da
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow - gets me higher high high
Pressure on people - people on streets
Turned away from it all like a blind man
Sat on a fence but it don't work
Keep coming up with love
but it's so slashed and torn
Why - why - why ?
Love love love love love
Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking
Can't we give ourselves one more chance
Why can't we give love that one more chance
Why can't we give love give love give love give love
give love give love give love give love give love
'Cause love's such an old fashioned word
And love dares you to care for
The people on the edge of the night
And love dares you to change our way of
Caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is our last dance
This is ourselves
Under pressure
Under pressure
Pressure

for the peecee

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 19:32:49 GMT

Team Fortress 2 is $2.50 until 5pm EST today... on Steam, I assume.

I want to get it! I didn't want to get it again (I have it for X-Box 360) for $20, but I will pay $2.50.

Lisa, do you want me to get it for you too???

E and M, you guys still play this? Plan to?

http://www.shacknews.com/laryn.x?story=61061

Alright

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 15:00:50 GMT

Hey! Thank you for replying, everyone! To my last post. I have added some of your sites to my daily checklist and checked out most of the others.

Merlin is up and walking and making me let him out of the bathroom we've been keeping him in.

Technically he is about the same, except less tired, as he was when he got home. I say this because he still wants to eat but can't figure out how to use his mouth to eat... he just licks the food and slobbers... and he is still drooling a lot... but it is nice to see him wanting to get up and explore instead of just sleeping all the time.

I think he'll be able to eat and therefore have his feeding tube removed. It is encouraging that he is even interested. I just hope he'll get better.

At work I have A Million things to do. See how diligently I am working? sigh.

Werewolf discussion and character creation tonight sounds fun, and I am excited, but logistically? I hope it will work out so we don't have to wait until next week. We still haven't packed for our trip yet.

Halo 3 multiplayers are CREEPY.

HELLO LJ

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 20:15:53 GMT

So I haven't posted in a long time. I need to add some people to my friend's list. I think John, Mallory, Emily...

I am not even sure who is ON my friend's list! I will look and fix things. Sorry about that everyone.

In order to post more... yay?... I am not going to think too much about my posts. I used to overthink things before trying to post. I am just going to ramble.

I am procrastinating making phone calls that I deem to be borderline ridiculous in premise. I am calling people who wanted to be signed up for a class at the school I work at months ago that got cancelled then but now we have a class that is about to be cancelled and you know what... just nevermind. It is a stupid thing to ask people and I don't want to do it. If I can busy myself for 40 minutes, I can do it tomorrow.

Yay?

I need some new websites to check daily.

So far I have
Everything from Here to There
Non-Adventures of Wonderella (recently added)
Penny-Arcade
N4G
CNN
my e-mail

occasionally I check Metacritic and confirm suspicions
occasionally I check World of Warcraft to see if something changed to entice me to spend more time playing

Can anyone make any suggestions? I specifically want something like N4G or CNN... something with daily news. I sometimes check Science Daily, which used to be my homepage, but something felt depressing about seeing scientific breakthroughs every day but not hearing about them coming to any fruition.

So, suggestions?????????? I am soliciting YOUR comment.

Pisces and the Elephant - poem

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 16:56:21 GMT

the pisces
and the elephant
the goround
the nightshade

carefully we wreak
and toil
serf side

tasting dips in the sun
tithing in subsidence

Mouth and Madness/Killed Froth - poems

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 17:33:03 GMT

mouth and madness
into that great scape

disaster shine across my hearth

found and drowned in oblivious reenactment

----------------------------------

killed froth
forgotten lengths
verity insured
depths absolute
taste felt
licking wounds

I'm sorry, but no shit!

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Wed, 29 Jul 2009 16:45:52 GMT

It's still cool that they used math and stuff to quantify it...
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20090728/sc_afp/sciencearmsoffbeat

SW: OLD REPUBLIC - RPG

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Sun, 26 Jul 2009 23:04:16 GMT

Hi folks (L, M, E),

It looks like the time period we chose should be interesting. Lots of things are going on with the Mandolorians, Sith, Republic, and Jedi. Not all Jedi adhere to the Council's wishes in this time period. Some have aligned themselves with the Bounty Hunters Guild and others are doing their own thing. Beyond that, smuggling, piracy, and mercenaries are common, as are Jedi, Sith, bounty hunters, droids, explorers, colonists, and so on. Almost anything you can think of should be possible regarding stance in the universe politically and your character's past and occupation.

Mallory, when you get the forums set up, please send me a link and instructions for Lisa and I to join w/posting rights.

E, M, I started researching the races you preliminarily chose for the game and I am happy to report both homeworlds and races are possible and active during the time period we chose.

L, as you know already, we are continuing to investigate droid character progressions regarding game mechanics, but a fun droid storyline would be easy to create during this time period.

Links for info on races, just for convenience, not because I don't think you could find it yourselves...

Zabrak
http://starwars.wikia.com/wiki/Zabrak

Bothan
http://starwars.wikia.com/wiki/Bothan

That's it for now,
W

Light emission

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 16:29:12 GMT

http://news.yahoo.com/s/livescience/20090722/sc_livescience/strangehumansglowinvisiblelight

The article and the study really doesn't seem to think this is a big deal beyond a "huh, who knew?" attitude, but I think this is pretty significant.

AT-ATs on Photoshop Friday

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 15:41:49 GMT

http://www.somethingawful.com/d/photoshop-phriday/star-wars-walker.php

DNA Not The Same In Every Cell Of Body

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Fri, 17 Jul 2009 09:07:26 GMT

This is a really big deal

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2009/07/090715131449.htm

Harry Potter thoughts

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 16:54:39 GMT

I will post my review thoughts of Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince later today. Everyone be excited!

1 vs. 100 Live Studio Video

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 16:46:55 GMT

I was reading reviews of 1 vs. 100 Live Beta and I found this short video from inside the studio during a live show. Kind of neat if you like the game.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QvSSq5EXSfg&feature=player_embedded

WoW Patch 3.2

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Thu, 25 Jun 2009 15:24:13 GMT

I know I Know, this is horrible... the two people who read this sometimes that might care about it have both quit WoW and I am just being an ass posting about it.... but I can't help it! It is exciting!

Taken from WoW.com:

"Battlegrounds will be more casual friendly: I am very excited about the BG changes that are coming up. I used to love Warsong Gulch when people actually played it. When it has a 20 minute time limit and allows for ties, I'll be back with bells on. Arathi Basin and and Eye of the Storm both require fewer points to win and less time to take over flags, so those will be quicker and probably more fun. The biggest news, however, is that completing objectives (capturing flags, winning the game) will give experience. This means that if battlegrounds are your thing, you could level up completely doing nothing but PvP. Note: Killing players will still not give XP. Also, twinks can turn off XP so they won't level, but that means they will only be playing against other twinks. In other words, your level 12 in whites and maybe a green or two will no longer have to contend with ubergeared/enchanted perpetually level 19 WSG professionals."

BGs can grant experience now??????????????????????????

Finally! A great reason for me to return to the game. I can quest OR pvp and still advance my character. PvP always felt like it was a distraction, but now it is part of the character's progression!

Possibly the best spam e-mail I have ever received...

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Thu, 26 Mar 2009 19:16:50 GMT

The only punchline I could think of for this masterpiece of spam is the subject, which is at the bottom...

"time for a new spring look...
cate was so happy she began yelling "let's give a hand to springtime!
she's amazing.

4. i don't worry about a little "creative clutter" in cate's room. i say, a good
dress up/ barbie mess day better than watching tv all afternoon, right? pretty soon
i will just put my 'kerchief on again and go to town. (yes, that is what cate's room
looks like again, just over a month after the big clean. i tell you, i'm fighting a
losing battle with that girl). does that answer your question, mary? i hope it
helps! wink.
really, cate is also mexican, japanese, native american, swiss, and a lot more- a
true american- so we actually have a lot of family history travelling to do, but i
really love the romantic beauty of ireland, and have always been drawn to that part
of the world. plus i really love corned beef.

and you eat with your sunglasses on
i love the comments i get from all of you.

have you seen april's ms living yet? sax
i found that amazing old shirt (we're big fans) at the thrift store for $1 and it's
so soft.

Coco
may you always have courage to take a chance and never find frogs in your underpants.

i am going to turn on some good music and choose to be happy.
i am blocking my two latest projects today and will show them tomorrow.

wooohoooo!"
it's definitely worth the long drive,

and you are happy.
she'll be here friday and saturday april 3rd and 4th, and she'll be taking
appointments for all day/ night both days at my house.

(i hate in quilting and knitting and sewing when the designs get all fancy just
because they can).
my homekeeping secrets

(so is corned beef if you've never tried it).
in a tiny town in idaho

my happy plans for this evening include knitting and watching two favorite movies:
far and away followed by tristan and isolde.
1. in the craft room i throw everything on the homework table. that clears up the
floor for more mess craft making.

i told cate about st. patrick's day and ireland- she has a lot of irish ancestors
through me.
with the sun streaming in

back in a few days
may the light always find you on a dreary day."

SUBJECT of the E-mail: "Herpes will never play tricks with you"

John and Daniel, have you seen this?

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Wed, 25 Mar 2009 14:27:49 GMT

I thought this was pretty funny.

http://www.penny-arcade.com/comic/2007/7/23/

Also they have a new pokemon comic up today.

I like my job now part doo

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 15:13:52 GMT

Alright, so if you made it through the first ramble, hopefully this won't be as long.

The second reason I like my job more now is that I know my limits. These are almost imperceptible limitations on my ability to handle my social anxieties, perfectionism, and stress due to completely being overloaded with things for too long.

I would not have this ability if I was still feeling guilty about everything I did or did not do. See my last post for an explanation.

Because I can now decide I am done working for the day without guilt, I can start to decipher when it is appropriately necessary for me to go home and stop clouding my mind with work stress. In the past, my drive to defeat my own guilt caused me to overwork myself... sometimes to the point of not doing the my job well enough. This guilt cycle just kept reinforcing itself and would become so unmanageable that I would want to quit my job just to end the cycle. Though I realized there was a cycle happening at the time, I did not know how to stop it. The removal of personal guilt has helped me a lot.

I'm starting to like my job...

rantaboutfuture@yahoo.com — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 13:49:49 GMT

No, really, I am actually starting to like my job. I am kind of... excited this morning. I have been excited the last few times I have come to work. I finally feel like I can more than barely get a handle on this job. This happened for a lot of reasons... I started typing those reasons, but the first reason used up all my time to post... so if you feel brave you can read that ramble. I will post more later or tomorrow if I feel like it.

First of all, I am now denying my overestimation of my accountability when things go wrong at work... or even if things go right but people act upset. To elaborate, I come from a family where blame and criticism is a dish best served often. Every little task was nitpicked and scrutinized for perfection and peak performance. Most often, things were not done well enough and I heard about it. I believe, now, that the criticism I experienced was mostly unjust. Certainly I was praised when I did exceptionally... and luckily for me I did exceptionally well a lot, not to boast, or I would probably not understand praise. Unfortunately, my psyche was somewhat compromised because an incorrectly high bar was set for me to jump over to achieve "satisfactory" in my professional and personal life. This is something I have been railing against through purposeful laziness, fear, and anxiety for a long time. Suffice to say that strategy, born of desperation, has not been working. I now purposefully derail the guilt that accompanies the most basic tasks performed for others. Most people don't often feel this overabundance of guilt, I have discovered. To explain, imagine someone casually asks you to hand them a pen on a desk next to you. You hand it to them and proceed to ask probing questions about their perception of the competency you displayed in handing the pen i.e. was it handed pointing in the correct directions, was the task handled promptly enough, did I display an undesirable attitude whilst performing the task... and on and on. Now, I actually have always muted about 20% of those extremely ridiculous worries due to being completely sure I was crazy, but as a result, the remaining worries felt real and dangerous.

To avoid all of that perceived scrutiny and displeasure with my handling of tasks, I often refuse tasks outright just to avoid my own guilt reactions. The side effect of that has always been guilt at having refused a task that I might have been capable of doing easily but for my psychological issues.

The phenomenon has not been limited to the things others ask me to do, I extend it to my own personal goals and projects. I often will not attempt creative pursuits due to rampant personal accountability issues. For example, did I devote enough time to a particular detail to make it worthy of being finished, did I make optimal choices in my overall design and on and on. Even uncreative pursuits have been affected. I can barely get myself to do cleaning tasks because of my own self-judgment. I can wipe up a spill, but shouldn't I also wipe the area with cleaner, then rinse it, then dry it? And then, shouldn't I do all the other spills while I am doing that spill?

I have retained enough... freedom... from these worries to allow myself the option of not doing things that I am afraid of, though it does result in my worrying about the fact that I didn't do them. That worry, however, is usually much more manageable than the worries I encounter while trying to do something.

Anyways... believe it or not, that is only the first reason I am happier at work. If you decided to read this, well... what the fuck. I would probably have assumed I was insane and not read past the first few sentences. But then I would have felt guilty about it.